November 29, 2023
I recently came back from an emergency trip to Dhaka, and felt about a million mixed emotions. From being grateful for life and human resilience to feeling completely futile.
I don't actually know what a mid-life crisis looks like. With the world at war against humanity, the powers that be not thinking twice about annihilating an entire nation, my finance profession feeling pointless, not finding a ton of general purpose, and simply too much on my plate causing overwhelm, it felt close enough. While not at war or being bombed to smithereens, the personal struggle was real. You start to question everything...
Should I go back to school?
Do I need an MBA? A PhD?
Just get some entirely different degree?
Become a personal trainer?
Become a teacher?
Perhaps I should buy a new car?
Invest in a retirement home and take care of the elderly?
Move to a new state? (this is a perpetual question, mind you...)
So many questions....
Instead, I took walks. Many walks.
A hike or two.
Deep breaths outside in nature.
Did lots of yoga.
Attended a group yoga class after many years.
Meditated.
Lifted weights.
Rearranged fitness subscriptions.
Bought new fitness equipment. (Fine, a little retail therapy was necessary.)
I had worked my way out of postpartum depression through exercise. What's a mid-life crisis?
Still struggling some, but I'm back to finding my pockets of purpose and strength that carry me through the days and weeks. I even had a really good work day yesterday - shocker. Once the fog clears, I'm hoping It will stay away for a while.
I wish you lightness and clarity today, and that you find your own pockets of sanity in today's crazy world. ♥️